i have to let this out. i feel it constantly.
a friend of mine came over to visit from home while on his trip.
he just left my room and now i'm left with this feeling of sadness, gladness and wonder.
i've always valued companionship,especially those that mean something to me.
when my friend left,i realised that i miss all of my friends from home. I miss all of my primary and secondary school friends. some of us have remained good friends for more than 10 years. we grew up together. we shared alot of experiences.
I miss all the fun and free times I experienced.
Then moving on to college,I met the greatest bunch of people. This group of individuals trully shaped my life. And I mean this sincerely. They mean alot to me too...although I do wonder sometimes what I mean to them. But I really feel that being around these people,it just reinforces my core beliefs in companionship and that if something means anything to you,it's worth keeping.
Now I'm in uni...it's been a tough ride...filled with tears and laughter. Amazing how these two keep coming up in life hand in hand. I am blessed yet again to be among a wonderful group of people. They too mean alot to me. Maybe some more than others. But having them in my life is a true blessing.
I grow afraid of losing the bonds that have been created over time with these individuals that I have met. I am afraid that things change so much that what was poured into any form of companionship just washes away. It's sad that when all you want to do is talk to a person again but the other person doesn't seem interested. I know things change,yes we grow up,yes things are different. But I bet there's no denying the fact that some things will always remain. And I hold that very dearly. I believe in that.
I miss my family more than anything as well.
This post is about people, because really, that's one of the things life's about...
-You grow afraid of losing something because it means everything to you-
(forgive me for my bluntness...this is a spur of the moment thing)
