*This Blog will undergo a revival real soon. Just gotta kick exams in the butt first*
till then, take care =)
Silence may be a good thing
Tumblr
I've found a new avenue to express some of my thoughts.
So forgive me for not updating blogger for quite some time.
I'll leave it for longs posts.
So please check out my tumblr @ http://alongthewindingroad.tumblr.com/
xoxo
l o w
I feel like shit right now.
I feel down.
I feel out.
I feel like I've lost control of everything.
I feel so disorganized.
I just want to be home.
I'm tired.
I need my friends to talk to.
I need rest......
can't fight this feeling
i have to let this out. i feel it constantly.
a friend of mine came over to visit from home while on his trip.
he just left my room and now i'm left with this feeling of sadness, gladness and wonder.
i've always valued companionship,especially those that mean something to me.
when my friend left,i realised that i miss all of my friends from home. I miss all of my primary and secondary school friends. some of us have remained good friends for more than 10 years. we grew up together. we shared alot of experiences.
I miss all the fun and free times I experienced.
Then moving on to college,I met the greatest bunch of people. This group of individuals trully shaped my life. And I mean this sincerely. They mean alot to me too...although I do wonder sometimes what I mean to them. But I really feel that being around these people,it just reinforces my core beliefs in companionship and that if something means anything to you,it's worth keeping.
Now I'm in uni...it's been a tough ride...filled with tears and laughter. Amazing how these two keep coming up in life hand in hand. I am blessed yet again to be among a wonderful group of people. They too mean alot to me. Maybe some more than others. But having them in my life is a true blessing.
I grow afraid of losing the bonds that have been created over time with these individuals that I have met. I am afraid that things change so much that what was poured into any form of companionship just washes away. It's sad that when all you want to do is talk to a person again but the other person doesn't seem interested. I know things change,yes we grow up,yes things are different. But I bet there's no denying the fact that some things will always remain. And I hold that very dearly. I believe in that.
I miss my family more than anything as well.
This post is about people, because really, that's one of the things life's about...
-You grow afraid of losing something because it means everything to you-
(forgive me for my bluntness...this is a spur of the moment thing)
What's The Point?
Ever find yourself asking what's the point?
What's the point caring?
What's the point liking her if she doesn't like me?
What's the point in studying when i'm going to fail?
What's the point in trying when I can't make it to the end?
What's the point running a race you know you can't win?
Obviously we could start by changing how we structure the questions we ask ourselves. But today, I wanna talk about 'what's the point'.
Sometimes you get that feeling of not seeing the point in doing something. for instance, trying to save a friendship when the other party doesn't seem to bother to do the same. Only you will know how much the friendship means between the both of you, only you know what it took to get it. But all of a sudden you realize it's fading away. You call, you text and you try to bridge the gaps and seal the cracks that you noticed. But it seems like you're the only one doing so and the other party seems uninterested. Here is where the question comes in...is this all worth it? WHAT'S THE POINT?
What's the point in running a race you can't win?
It's in the fact that you would be running your own race, not that of someone else
It's the fact that you gave it a go, gave it a try
It's the fact that you do not give up even before it's started
The point isn't about winning but how much heart you put into trying...how much you've learnt from your journey to the end
Wanted you to know
Just wanted you to know...
you make me smile,
make me laugh...
Just wanted you to know
I love being near you...
I love seeing you smile,
hearing you laugh...
Just wanted you to know
I am so glad you came into my life...
so glad we met...
I just wanted to tell you...
just in case you did not know.
