Silence may be a good thing

*This Blog will undergo a revival real soon. Just gotta kick exams in the butt first*

till then, take care =)

Tumblr

I've found a new avenue to express some of my thoughts.
So forgive me for not updating blogger for quite some time.
I'll leave it for longs posts.
So please check out my tumblr @ http://alongthewindingroad.tumblr.com/

xoxo

l o w

I feel like shit right now.
I feel down.
I feel out.
I feel like I've lost control of everything.
I feel so disorganized.
I just want to be home.
I'm tired.
I need my friends to talk to.
I need rest......

can't fight this feeling

i have to let this out. i feel it constantly.

a friend of mine came over to visit from home while on his trip.

he just left my room and now i'm left with this feeling of sadness, gladness and wonder.

i've always valued companionship,especially those that mean something to me.

when my friend left,i realised that i miss all of my friends from home. I miss all of my primary and secondary school friends. some of us have remained good friends for more than 10 years. we grew up together. we shared alot of experiences.

I miss all the fun and free times I experienced.

Then moving on to college,I met the greatest bunch of people. This group of individuals trully shaped my life. And I mean this sincerely. They mean alot to me too...although I do wonder sometimes what I mean to them. But I really feel that being around these people,it just reinforces my core beliefs in companionship and that if something means anything to you,it's worth keeping.

Now I'm in uni...it's been a tough ride...filled with tears and laughter. Amazing how these two keep coming up in life hand in hand. I am blessed yet again to be among a wonderful group of people. They too mean alot to me. Maybe some more than others. But having them in my life is a true blessing.

I grow afraid of losing the bonds that have been created over time with these individuals that I have met. I am afraid that things change so much that what was poured into any form of companionship just washes away. It's sad that when all you want to do is talk to a person again but the other person doesn't seem interested. I know things change,yes we grow up,yes things are different. But I bet there's no denying the fact that some things will always remain. And I hold that very dearly. I believe in that.

I miss my family more than anything as well.

This post is about people, because really, that's one of the things life's about...

-You grow afraid of losing something because it means everything to you-

(forgive me for my bluntness...this is a spur of the moment thing)

What's The Point?

Ever find yourself asking what's the point?

What's the point caring?
What's the point liking her if she doesn't like me?
What's the point in studying when i'm going to fail?
What's the point in trying when I can't make it to the end?
What's the point running a race you know you can't win?

Obviously we could start by changing how we structure the questions we ask ourselves. But today, I wanna talk about 'what's the point'.

Sometimes you get that feeling of not seeing the point in doing something. for instance, trying to save a friendship when the other party doesn't seem to bother to do the same. Only you will know how much the friendship means between the both of you, only you know what it took to get it. But all of a sudden you realize it's fading away. You call, you text and you try to bridge the gaps and seal the cracks that you noticed. But it seems like you're the only one doing so and the other party seems uninterested. Here is where the question comes in...is this all worth it? WHAT'S THE POINT?

What's the point in running a race you can't win?
It's in the fact that you would be running your own race, not that of someone else
It's the fact that you gave it a go, gave it a try
It's the fact that you do not give up even before it's started
The point isn't about winning but how much heart you put into trying...how much you've learnt from your journey to the end

Wanted you to know

Just wanted you to know...
you make me smile,
make me laugh...

Just wanted you to know
I love being near you...
I love seeing you smile,
hearing you laugh...

Just wanted you to know
I am so glad you came into my life...
so glad we met...

I just wanted to tell you...
just in case you did not know.

Feeling so down

I really miss my family.

I really miss my friends.
I need a boost...

Simple Meal for Common Dummies =)

Here's a simple meal I cooked up today for dinner. It's simple yet alil chique (as if =)
Let me take you through it.

Bought important culinary weapons today at Home & Living at The Spring. It's this great shop selling stuff you need at home and cool water bottles too(I think I've found my new fetish). They actually have some rather interesting and quality goods. And,they treated me well,like a customer and not some random kid who comes in to take a look at stuff,sniffs and walks out =) good on you people!
I am VERY proud of the new frying pan. It's non-stick and non-scratch. I love it. Frying pan,you are so sexyyyyyyyyyy...Now,I'm preparing Grilled Beef Cutlets with Greens. (Apologies to my non-beef eating readers)
Get some cutlets of beef (or a steak,lamb shoulder or something without bones) from your local butcher,got mine from Ta Kiong,not pricey and FESH and rub it with salt,pepper and a marinate of your liking. I used the Lim Kum Hee bbq marinate. Bag it up and leave it be in the fridge for about an hour or so.While you let the marinate set in the meat,prepare the salad by grating some carrots,cleaning the lettuce(or any other greens you like. I recommend getting those more pricey ones cause they're packed in vitamins,are fresh and last longer) and opening a can of sweet corn kernel. Top it off with any salad dressing you like. Add a nice hard boiled egg if you want =)Take your meat out and pan fry it to give it that crusty caramelized texture people crave for. Be sure not to cook it,all you want is a nice brown coating over the meat so watch the heat and make sure both sides of the meat have equal time over direct heat.Next up,pop the meat into your oven or grill at a temperature of say 100degrees celsius,for smaller chunks of meat such as the one I used or if you're using steak sized portions, 120-130degrees. Make sure you've pre-heated the oven!!!After 25-35 minutes(depending on portion size), turn off the heat and let the meat rest for 5-10 minutes. After that, plate and serve =)

Wrong Wrods.....l o l

Sam J W says:
. i mean
. ok
. no no..
. ugh
. wrong wrods

bahahaha =p

2009, A Review

I'll take you a few steps back.
Let me take you through my 2009 and share you the moments I'll remember...

Babuk...
My late grandad passed away on the 15th of September 2009 at about 10a.m. He was supposed to be 74 in December... I was by his side. This has to be the hardest time I have ever had to face in my entire life to date...Losing him left me numb...left us all numb and feeling empty. He was a huge part of my life and sometimes,I regret not being able to spend more time with him cause I was off at uni. But the comforting thought I keep in my mind was knowing that he was proud of me. And I hope he knew...and that he knows to this day, how proud and blessed I am to have a grandfather like him...
Start of University Studies

Turning 19 meant leaving home. Pursuing my education in a distant and foreign land. I got myself into The University of Adelaide and the experience this whole year has been eye opening. Living away from home,in some place I never even imagined of going was a whole new chapter in my life. I'm really glad God made this all come true and also for the support I got from my family. Still have 2 more years to go and I plan to make the most of the time left...The uni from across the bridgeGlenelg BeachKeepin it real =p

Camping in the Outback
Yes,I really did camp in the outback with my friend from college. We went over to Jenna's holiday house about 5hours drive North of Adelaide nearby Port Augusta. It was trully memorable being around great company and having fun. Climbed Mt.Brown, Rode around in the ATV and even managed to go horseback riding =)
Sydney!

My first ever long-haul roadtrip to Sydney. Actually my first ever visit to Sydney =). Cut across the nation on a 16 hour drive leaving on a Friday night and coming back on a Monday was quite an experience. The great company made it all the more happening.At the Blue MountainsThe freshest and best seafood at the Sydney Fish MarketA view of Bondi Beach from the hotelYou haven't been to Sydney if you haven't been to the Opera HouseDarling Harbour =)Lindt on the HarbourThe GREAT hurrican Ribs. THE bestAt some fancy restaurant at a hidden beachside neighbourhood the 'Prince' of HK recommended to us =pOystersSeafood RisotoPasta Oleo with ArtichokesSeared Duck with BrusselSproutsYes =) It's the real deal

KL Trip
I can say,this was the highlight and icing of my year. I will never be able to put into words how wonderful this great group of people are to me...

xoxo